Squareface tries
I’m developing a phobia for writing.
Every week it’s an ego-bashing session at the Writing Creative Non-Fiction Workshop I signed up for. We sit around in a circle like Alcoholics Anonymous and pacify each other’s bulging egos (that of writers and writer wannabes), and every week I am slapped with the reality that I’m the weakest link (I don’t think this is even the right usage).
Each week I struggle to come up with a decent piece of work for submission, but each time I look up after reading an excerpt aloud, their eyes blink back with sympathy for the awkward Asian kid who can’t write beyond what’s in-your-face.
It’s ego-bruising to know you’re the weakest; lousiest; most self-conscious.
Yet I turn up every week, because I know I’ll be letting myself down if I don’t. There’s still the likelihood of potential, and the possibility of unleashing something that I hope will be unleashed soon.
Or at least the ego-deflating sessions will wake me up from my own delusion and I’ll quit clinging on to fat hope.
hahaha! for some reasons, I find this post very funny! Anyway, just becoz nobody understands what u r writing, does not mean its not good. I mean, who can understand Shakespeare or Tennyson but learn them because they know both are good?
FWAH how can u use Shakespeare and Tennyson as an analogy to juxtapose my writing? Such an insult to them, I hope they don’t flip in their graves. You’d better apologize to them man.
Ok but thanks for your encouragement (I think?). But it’s not that they don’t understand me, more like I’m too much of an amateur.
haha! does usage of BIG words mean Advance/Profound? the secret of best works lies in their s.i.m.p.l.i.c.i.t.y.
yeah but it isn’t abt big words…they’re not bombastic either…it’s the existence of style, and it’s clear who has it and who doesn’t
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